Self Exploration

You won’t make money in fashion, go to business school. That’s what my dad said. I went to business school and kept going. Now I come faced with the reality that I do not belong. My resume is a threat, I have been advised to delete my education and experiences. I went back to my computer and began removing those parts of my life that have meant the world.

Then I stopped and thought if I cannot show myself as I am with all my experiences and education, then perhaps I am lowering myself. Like a tall woman with a short guy who refuses to wear heels. I am who I am and I will stand tall! Despite the questioning as to why I need a PHD, I will continue gathering my notes and research in pretty books. How can I go on looking at someone else’s navigation?

I am on my own course. I don’t want to come to the last page and think oh well that was a safe story. If this is my shot my one chance to really go for it then I have to remember what I was put here to do. One simple answer: I was put on this earth to be ME. What do I enjoy most? I start from there and then am figuring out how to monetize without exploiting my joy.

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Sometimes I have to ground myself to remember what I want. Or perhaps what I can give. 

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The crowds always surround, but you have to decide where you will go.

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Mixed feelings about this book, but the one line that I love from it. ‘It’s clear to me now that I have been moving toward you and you toward me for a long time’. The Bridges of Madison County by Robert James Walker

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I have special journals for various areas of notes. One is for fine dressmaking, another for human rights in the fashion industry, business ideas…

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