It wasn’t right from the start. I have been applying for various positions here in California. So many times I’ve said ‘yes’, when deep down it felt like a ‘no’. I won’t step in the mud. Sometimes I wish I could have a bit more faith. Its easier to settle than it is to step out.

There is no one to catch us when we fall. I am frightened to leap. Feels like someone who has been in an accident. We have to drive. Even if in short distances. Back in London after fashion school I almost accepted a low level position at an amazing luxury fashion house.

I held out and kept believing that something better was waiting. I was persistent and strict with my standards. In the end I landed a fantastic senior level placement. When watching  a plant sprout out it can be disheartening. Do what feels right and wait.

Had the apartment to myself for the weekend. Got dressed up in my fav vintage dress.

Opened a bottle of Pinot Noir, watched documentaries.

and painted.

Making cards for family and friends.