Signing Out

Dear Lover,

I have followed you to far off places. Stories and words cannot fully express my love of you. I didn’t believe I was strong enough or could handle a great escape. To explore the realms of my imagination into reality. After three-years of being hip to hip this is where we must go our separate ways. I will carry you with me not in a place, but in my memories. I just cannot do this anymore. I want to hibernate in ‘normality’ for a while. Perhaps I will make banana bread, sleep late and even go on a first date.

A man I admire that I haven’t met, says ‘Kiss first, otherwise why bother’? My reply, ‘could be the best kiss of your life’. Perhaps that is the way, if we never try we will never know. If we never explore, we cannot see the beauty of an ‘ordinary life’. At the start of this journey I wanted so badly to run and hide from a world that had not challenged me and left me feeling isolated and incomplete. Then I shot myself out to the stars and went around to see ‘what life is for’? It is to accept ourselves and love. That is all. If you are lucky enough to have a dream, do not let it blind you to miss what you already have in front of you. Kiss your life on the cheek and say, ‘you are one worth fighting for and I love you, I love you and will never stop’. In this all American town of Ventura, California I begin another dream.

Bali Fashion Dream Captain’s Log Signing Out!

Paradise is with you always. Choose it every moment of every day. Sadness is just a passing rain that nourishes the soul to heal the mind. Giggle like a child and remember that we must go on.

To say ‘goodbye’  means you once had the courage to say ‘hello’.

Thank you my dear friends, family and readers, I say ‘adieu’.

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Batik painting class in 2013 where I translated the Poem by Robert Frost – The Road Not Taken into Textile

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In my studio in Bali 2014 planning a dress with my inspiration boards.

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Working on some dresses in the workshop.

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Final dress created on a social project in the Philippines during a livelihood training collaboration with NEW Pathways to Enterprise.



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