Everything should have gone to plan. I had double checked my terminal and had arrived early enough for a leisurely read of a new book. Three-hours later I had missed my flight and was yelling across the Cebu airline desk. No one would answer and I waited almost 1 hour to speak to the supervisor. In these cases I usually stay calm and just give the entire situation the benefit of the doubt. Several mix ups with my ticket and staff left me in in the city for another 4 nights. I could of taken another flight, but something told me to ease up and just stay. I could arrive Saturday morning to Bali in just enough time to make our Ireland run photoshoot and to pack before my flight to the USA on Tuesday.
Here I sit in an apartment in Manila, with the window open and the yellow moon glowing in the distance. I had been rushing around for the past month preparing for the Philippines trip, my friends wedding dress and opening our second AVEH location in the north of Bali. No where in the mix of that process did I shed a moment for me. In the past two weeks we have been to remote villages implementing livelihood training and sleeping an average of 2-3 hours a night. My system had been shot for many reasons, mostly seeing the level of poverty in the northern region of Samar. The attendees were hiding food under their tables to take home to hungry families.
Kids wore smiling faces as I worried for their future education. It was all too much, I wasn’t sure how to face it. Mostly how to return to a world where we drive big cars and eat too much. How could I forget these people? I couldn’t but the challenge is where to go from here. Today I had a long swim several laps back and forth along the pool. After I returned to my room for a chicken pesto pasta and fresh mango juice delivery. I eased up and realized the solution starts with me taking care of me. The livelihood and support of others begins by giving myself a break. Sitting in a tropical place and simply saying to myself ‘you did well Stacy’. Then to rest and begin again tomorrow. So much is out of our control, sometimes it is just a matter of looking at the reality from a distance to make a difference and acting at a pace that is sustainable.