You cannot slow down, you cannot back down. This is the moment that will forever define your life. All those moments when you wanted to sink to the floor in utter tears to crawl into a ball to say I am not strong enough. This is the divider between legends and lose. Life is not easy even for the pretty. No smile, no dollar, nothing can distinguish the challenge of the unknown. It is always when you must show up that is when you want to turn away. Who are you? What are you? Kick yourself in the rear make this existence useful. No tears or excuses will release you from a web of regret.
Get up when everyone is sitting and shake out your hair and your hands like a fool. Let the heart of the music take you to far off places. Invite friends and strangers to join on this voyage to who knows where. I am always afraid. I jump so high, I take on so much. I want to sink down and hide from my choices. Maybe this one is beyond me. Can I do it, can I make it? Can I be challenged beyond my greatest standard? Who wants standard anything? I want amazing everything! I can’t be normal. I try and fail miserably.
I let people down and scare those close to me. I am so bold and weak in the same fold. I want to see what this life has if I were to overcome the weakness of my mind. It takes me away to dark spaces. I listened to those uncertainties for two days and followed the tracks in circles. I was only in tears and confusion. I stood up and went for a run. I didn’t care the distance or my time, I just knew that words and opinions can be washed with the sweat of my brow. We can always overcome this choice is ours and ours alone. The irony is that the challenges are the very remedy that you have been looking for.