Eagles Wings

I gulp down the insecurity, I look away. A rock slides from my unleveled footing. Before I can turn away the wind takes my hand and lures me to dive in. I dig deep and pull out my courage. I back up slowly and then I take a massive bolt off the edge. My arms expand like an eagle, I fall at such a speed I cannot handle. I am reminded that it is time to glide. So I follow the lips of the wind and caress its soft edges. Here we are in a place of exhalation and fright. We are moving going to places we could have never imagined. My heart locks and I forget to move. I fall again toward an expanse of broccoli shaped trees. I want to fall and let go because flying at this level it too much. I barely have my barring to achieve such levels.

At a recent church service it was mentioned that eagle mothers will force their young out of the nest by removing the soft feathers that create comfort. The discomfort becomes so unbearable with branches pricking at their bodies in a way that they must move. Security is not always your friend, if we stay too long in a place that is stagnant we too become infested. Caught in old lies and acceptance of the unacceptable. We must move change, grow and eventually fly. I want so desperately to go back to my safe haven in arms of another to protect me from my own bravery. It is too late now. I have taken my destiny by the shoulders and shaken all the possibilities out. The genie has granted my wish, time to step into my own light.

I am astonished by the women and men I am meeting these days and projects taking shape. It was like I was holding back. I still hold back but I keep pushing myself out of my nest. It is awkward and uncomfortable. My wings are not strong yet, but I fly and fall. I fly and fall again and again. When my broken wing heals, I can’t even imagine what is possible…anything. What is holding you back? What space keeps you trapped and can you move beyond the discomfort? Fast forward 5 – 10 years, what if you are still standing where you stand today? Will you be happily fulfilled? What if you can rewrite your story? What if you had a second chance with nothing holding you back? Can you take a running start and dive in with arms spread wide from sea to sea?

Wearing the first complete dress from the new collection. Other 3 in the background.

Wearing the first complete dress from the new collection. Other 3 in the background.

New sewing Machine: Thank you Pak Eddy from PT Susanto for sponsoring our workshop with such an important tool. Looks so cute :)

New sewing Machine: Thank you Pak Eddy from PT Susanto for sponsoring our workshop with such an important tool. Looks so cute 🙂

Sara putting the finishing touches on the dress. She helped me get ready Cinderella style for a night out. Need to find some glass slippers...

Sara putting the finishing touches on the dress. She helped me get ready Cinderella style for a night out. Need to find some glass slippers…

hmmm my little scooter next to the Harley. One day I will put on my big girl paints and learn to drive one of these babies. After I buy a real life dollhouse, I can have one parked out front.

hmmm my little scooter next to the Harley. One day I will put on my big girl pants and learn to drive one of these babies. After I buy a real life dollhouse, I can have one parked out front.

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