Grounding Gratitude

I ran through a field looking to find an escape. No matter how many times I try to keep it at bay the thoughts of doubt and insecurity blow in. I have to draw myself back to remember to be still. This is not a race. No hurry or pace is necessary. Everything is as it should be. Life isn’t meant to be perfect. It just is.

After trying out my new camera I sat in front of a corn field facing a farm thinking about my next moves. Then I realized I was waiting for something. I have been waiting for something my entire life. Like a masters degree, a visa, a relationship…any excuse I can find to be somewhere else. Gratitude, Gratitude, Gratitude why is it that I realize the best moments of my life after they occur.

Like this one, right now. The birds are chirping and the sun is rising as I wake in my little sister’s pink room. She tosses a bit as I type on my computer. I can hear my dad and step mom downstairs making breakfast. The fan overhead twirls a light wind and I am at ease. My mind doesn’t win this battle because I can see that what I have exactly as it is a wonderful blessing. I am so thankful again and wish not be anywhere. The me I am today is more then enough and the family I am blessed to love is far greater then the fantasy of tomorrow.

First shot of the day is my fav.

First shot of the day is my fav.

Of course some selfie action, difficult to capture the moment.

Of course some selfie action, difficult to capture the moment.

Farm country obsessed.

Wild flowers are so pretty.

Wild flowers are so pretty.

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