As I scroll through the ‘best of posts for the year’ on my Facebook pictures I realized two things. Number one those moments even the most painful ones where so special. The second and most important was that what seemed at the time as a road block turned out to be perfectly correct. How could it be that our path is so darn uncertain yet works out so wonderfully in the end?
I can remember feeling so frustrated and annoyed that God was messing around with my perfectly planned life. Writing that line makes me a laugh at my own arrogance. But it is true, much of my life’s pain comes from expectations of my own orchestrated outcomes. Life doesn’t work out that way and if we can accept and let the current of change take us along for the crazy ride, well we might end up exactly where we are meant to be.
Going through the inventory of events, there were many moments where I completely and totally reached a wall I could not climb. No matter how many times I was blocked. I was so angry and frustrated until I looked for a different wall to climb. Each time I have not only grown but I saw an even greater experience that would not have taken shape if I carried the disappointment. Thank goodness for let down, disappointment and heartache. I love myself more today because of them.