Tree Pose

It’s easy to escape the noise of the outside world when you live so far away. But now that I have returned to ‘society’. The fears and worries of others have reminded me of my own. When I first mentioned the thought of moving to Bali, everyone questioned me to uncertainty. It was only when I blocked out their thoughts that I was able to hear the clarity of my heart. Regardless of where I am in the world I need to learn the art of being rooted in my own truth.

I know what I am doing and how I live is completely nontraditional. But those days that I waver I ask myself a simple question: ‘If I had all the money in the world and I were to die in a year, what would I do?’ Rather morbid I know, but it does two things in that statement, it takes away the psychological financial barriers and puts a sense of urgency behind it. We think we have so much time. What if we do not, what if we just have this year?

I have put a lot of emotional stress on myself, but I need to start listening again to myself. Its getting a bit crowded in my head. I know that others fears come from a place of love and concern. I am so lucky to have my sisters who always challenge and support me in the same breath. Grace reminds me ‘you are not a little girl anymore, who cares what everyone thinks you are a woman and can decide your own path’. I plant my feet solidly in what I know in my heart and will continue trusting in the unknown.

My first visit to Bali as an adult on the Gili Islands.

My first visit to Bali as an adult on the Gili Islands.

Grace and I would catch the morning sunrise and walk around the island.

Grace and I would catch the morning sunrise and walk around the island.

Occasionally renting a bike for extra fitness.

Occasionally renting a bike for extra fitness.

Afternoon cool off.

Afternoon cool off.

Sunsets are special.

Sunsets are special.

 

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2 thoughts on “Tree Pose

  1. I love that second paragraph.

    “I know what I am doing and how I live is completely nontraditional. But those days that I waver I ask myself a simple question: ‘If I had all the money in the world and I were to die in a year, what would I do?’ Rather morbid I know, but it does two things in that statement, it takes away the psychological financial barriers and puts a sense of urgency behind it. We think we have so much time. What if we do not, what if we just have this year?”

    Define life from a new paradigm. I am begining to write again. It takes a huge learning curve for me to navigate the web. The farm season work in Florida is getting too hot. Crops are in. Pigs are in the freezer. But I must do the things I love and stop working in a world that destroys me, too. (Nursing jail). My new book is a children’s book. Look, That Polka Dot Car. I covet your support. Auntie

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