Have I thought about just walking away from this Bali Fashion Dream? Oh yes many times, too many to count. My friend messaged me knowing my struggle as of late and said some wise words, ‘This is about you – about what you want. You are allowed to change your mind. You are not answerable to anyone but yourself. You can change your mind about a decision you made two years ago. You can set yourself free and start again’.
But then again I think, how many people give up too soon. I would always wonder ‘what if I stuck it out, what if I tried a bit harder, what if I never gave up?’ I have decided not to wonder and to just keep going, maybe a bit slowly so that my mind and body can rest. But I will carry on this journey I began almost two years ago. Why? Because I believe in it! I love the ups the downs because with each push I know I am not denying my purpose. I am here for a reason.
I have taken the branch covered path with rocks that slide away along with the earth. But I cling with a trembling grip knowing that in time the obstacles will give. I am stronger than the challenges and I have decided I am much better from them. I am not the naive girl that believed in a fairytale. I am a woman who has been destroyed by the journey. I look around at the remains of my broken spirit and I gather up my hope, straighten up my dress and I walk again.