My first session with the school therapist was a tough one. I want to say it was fantastic and I am much better but that is not true. I felt terrible after because we had to bring to light the things I was burying. Talking to someone about such things helps to gain perspective on the areas of your life that may need changing. The red flags that came up and root causes seemed to relate to a few main things.
Firstly I don’t take care of myself in many ways and put others needs before myself. Also for various reasons I have lost my balance in life and turned something I love into work and shut everything else out for far too long. When I left the session on campus and took out my textbooks to begin reading I couldn’t focus and felt upset with my distraction. But I know that some disruptions are important especially the ones that are opening up wounds to heal.
I know there are a few of you that are reading this blog and who would benefit from meeting with someone. You don’t have to do this alone. You have options friends, hotlines for support, some jobs and schools offer these services. You are not weak to reach out, you are stronger for it. You are never alone. I felt bad to put pressure on friends but that is a part of loving someone is to be there when they need you the most.