My entire life I looked to love to fill that empty space that the heart holds. I would bend over backwards and put my needs last in the hopes that somewhere along the way the aching would escape. After having a love that consumed and comforted my soul, I compromised to make that love last.
But what I missed was that by not standing by the one person I should love most; myself I left myself open for heartbreak. I not only broke his heart but my own in the process. These days its time to rediscover that girl who loved to dance and sing. She was brave and strong! Nothing would stand in the way of her dreams.
Over the past two years I have begun to see glimpses of her, but I have also seen the jaded woman hurt by life and circumstances. Somewhere between the woman and the girl, I will find an escape from the inner struggle and accept all that exists. I am indecisive, irrational and passionate and you know what I love that about me…it is in our madness that makes one beautifully unique.